Its been almost 5 months since my life was turned upside down, since it went from running back and forth to work to running back and forth to doctors' visits, since my entire reality was rearranged and refocused. I found a lump. They found cancer, and God found His way right back to the center of my life. He has stood with me from the very beginning. From day one, when people ask what they can do, all I have ever asked for is prayer....lots of prayer. We've done a lot of praying here, too. This whole ordeal has brought our whole household back to God. Tonight at church the pastor preached on Recovery and Restoration. From the day the first doctor said "I can't say for sure without a biopsy but this looks like cancer" I have prayed. I cried, I prayed, and I gave it to God....all of it. He gave me a peace that I have carried with me since then...and I truly believe that is why I have done so well through the whole thing so far - physically and emotionally. Tonight, one of the songs we sang really hit me hard. The lyrics are: "This is the day, the hour, the time i give it all away to you
I wanna say i'll go your way, living my life for something real
I can't survive, i can't go on if i'm with- out you by my side
I wanna spend eternity with you
You've turned my world upside down
My life is spinning 'round you now, all of me, all for you
I'll let my light shine for you
Nothing's gonna stop me now, i'm living for you"
The music makes my heart dance with joy for the many blessings God has given me, even in these difficult times. The lyrics of the song really hit home with where I am in my life. I know things are rough, and I know there are more rough spots coming before the path smooths out, but I know I'm not walking that path alone and I know that, no matter what I encounter, my faith and I are strong enough to get through it. Nothing's gonna stop me now!!!
